So, what did I learn...

Results for Semester 1 exams came out today, amid much anticipation, following the non-graded Y (which stands for 'Yes') grade I received previously, which meant that I would be continuing to next semester. This anticipation quickly turned into a more sombre emotion as I scrolled through my results and found that I failed half my exams - two out of four; one by less than half a percent, but a fail nonetheless. In UWS, you can only fail three exams in the entire year, even if your average score is over 50%, which I admit sounds fairly reasonable. But right now I think I'll need all of this leeway to get myself through this year and start clinicals.
I came into Year 2, Semester 1 with optimism; although previous years warned that this semester was difficult, I was, or so I thought, prepared for this difficulty; I saw it as simply a slightly larger obstacle to overcome. So naturally, I am sure I spent more time studying this semester than last year, and so expected a slightly better result than what faced me today. Thinking about this in a more rational manner, it is obvious that I must have underestimated the difficulty of the exams, overestimated my effort, and should have done a few things differently.

First, I can hardly blame the school for marking too hard, as the cohort statistics were published and, although, as an entire cohort, we slipped (a fair bit), my personal results slipped significantly further. This indicates that my result was personal and so must have reflected personal achievement.
Second, I didn't attend as many lectures as I did last year, and also paid less attention in labs and in PBLs. Anecdotes are given of hero students who cram in two weeks before exams and pull off Credits, but I'm of the opinion that these hero students could have been right at the top of their grade, had they bothered to put in the effort. And for a more average student like myself, not attending all the lectures really does make a difference. Something to correct for this semester. As an observation, overall attendance rates for lectures seemed to dip quite a bit this semester as well.
Third, I must find a more efficient way to study. I doubt this will come easily, but I think going back to handwriting may prove more effective, to reduce any distractions and to help retain memory.
Fourth, exam technique still applies in Medicine. I chalked my relative success in anatomy last year to online quizzes with photographic images and familiarisation with cavaders; yet for some reason, this semester I went back to learning straight off anatomy textbooks, which covers basics but isn't a good way to prepare for exams such as anatomy spot-tests; rapid-fire tests that you only succeed in when you are an expert in real-life anatomy. This probably traces back to studying earlier and more consistently, since I found myself still learning a couple of days before exams, which caused loss of quick recall of the anatomy learnt months ago, as well as inability to quickly recall the newly-crammed material due to a sense of overwhelming doom accompanying the names of hundreds of different structures.

This year, I'm still aiming for an overall Credit; which means I will most probably need to hit a Distinction average next semester. This nearly happened last year, but on reflection, I think I can do better without trying to suddenly become a hermit. Second semester starts in three days, and I'm actually quite excited to get back into it. Nothing beats crappy results better than a dose of optimism, a sprinkle of hindsight, a tablespoon of objectivity and a generous helping of get-back-into-it.

Life is moving at a fast pace...

As we reach the half-way point of the first semester of year two, I'm starting to feel a little overwhelmed by the amount of effort required to do well in Medicine. I know that the upcoming years will be tougher than this year, with a full-time 9-5, 5 days a week attachment and intense Conference weeks filled with lectures, I can't help but feel a bit apprehensive that if I'm lagging behind now, I will be lagging behind in future years. In the space of eight rather short weeks (in my opinion, they flew by pretty fast), we have covered both renal and musculoskeletal systems. At the moment, my knowledge on musculoskeletal is close to nil, and I'm brushing up on my renal block now; and to help things, we just started neurology. I guess it's just a tiny worry, but it's a worry nonetheless, and I guess I've just got to keep at it. Good thing I'm finding all of this interesting (well, maybe not the renal), but still, it's a heck of a lot to keep track of - indeed, I didn't expect musculoskeletal being only three weeks in length; there's so many tendons, muscles, parts of the bone and functions of the whole system to learn! I'm glad we have mid-sem breaks not combined with Easter (that gives us, effectively, an extra day), and we don't have any mid-sem exams (definitely felt good last week walking around the university and seeing everyone heads-down).

I think that me and my mates playing Starcraft at every break is hardly helping the issue either. Or that we now have a Starcraft club. Oh what have I got into...

Life is rosy...

My first week as a second-year ended quite well; but before I get to the end, I probably should take it from the top. First of all, it's always nice to see everyone back; many of them I have not met during the holidays for whatever reason (I would like to blame my research project, but in reality it didn't prevent me from doing much... thanks, awesome holidays-are-meant-to-be-holidays supervisor!*) This week was meant to be a "get right into it" week, but most of the lectures were short, or introductory/welcome lectures; so it seemed a really relaxed week overall. However, the attitude towards study certainly seemed to have shifted in our grade; noticed a bit more of a studious attitude, not just in myself but of those around me - and this was the first week back as well! On the flip side of seeing everyone back was the not-so-joyous realisation of how our cohort had changed a little; some good friends of mine weren't around, and some I knew suddenly appeared in our cohort's lists for practical classes and tutorial groups. I think that as a grade, however, we pulled through first year quite well, which was quite heartening. Our first anatomy tutorial went quite well, and even included a little radiology session, which we haven't had before; getting a kidney via ultrasound hurts a tiny bit though.

Which brings me to our system of study for our first few weeks; the renal system. Not exactly what I would vote as 'most stimulating subject of study'; I think I will struggle to keep focused on my studies for renal. I remember meeting one of my friends from high school who I hadn't spoken to in a year, and asking him: "how do you study stuff you're not interested in?"; and he answered "well, I just force myself... I persuade myself that if I don't learn this properly, or read this much, then I won't get a nice job and get paid well, and life would be s**t." (He's doing Comm/Law... I'm not saying anything about Commerce or Law by inserting that piece of information in; I think it's a wonderful double degree that gets you places and does, by all means, lead to excellent job prospects if you have no passion for anything in particular that any university offers). Unfortunately for myself, I have not that faculty that allows me to delude myself; I have tried to settle for "my patients will die if I don't know this" which, funnily enough, doesn't get me anywhere, because then I think "well, I do have 4 more years of med school, and another couple of Olympics in ward experience to learn this, so just chillax right now."

That isn't the reason why life is rosy, however. Why life is rosy is because two very awesome things happened to me, today. One: I have an awesomely witty ICM tutor. and Two: I can cycle to hospital and not fall asleep during ICM/PCS (8km one way). Score.

* In relation to the SSRS, I may be getting a writeup of one my friend's experiences on this blog. So stay tuned for some objective recounts :) Also, I forgot to mention what PCS is - Procedural Skills; lessons on the more clinical side of medicine such as cannulation, injections and hooking up IV drips. That, actually, should be my third reason for why life is rosy.